What man is on firm foundation
if he is rocked by every tide and wave?
What man lives by faith and grace
if he relies on wretched self to live it?
Life with Christ is good,
we cannot expect it to be a product of ourselves alone.
It is a work of the Spirit to live.
For we are borne to death and sin.
Lord, it must be Your life in me, lived through me.
Apart from You, I care for no one,
feel nothing, act rashly,
yoke myself with business and expectation,
live for self.
I need radical salvation.
Not that wrought from sudden revelation or tides of holiness,
but the death of myself and the taking up of Christ.
Dying to the tides.
I must be a vessel that traverses the seas,
that always stays afloat,
not one that sinks and drowns in the waves.
Help me Lord, I know not how to do it.
In my own wretched flesh's power I see no solution.
So, Lord, live in me.
Make me Your vessel.
Lord, don't let me layer my corrupt vision,
my dead eyes,
with ideas of how I should see people.
Give me new eyes, Your vision.
Don't let me stuff feelings
and masquerade it as giving it up,
teach me to give it up.
Don't let me deceive myself
by covering up the dead man
with the shining new image.
Transform me from the inside out.
Every time I retreat to the dead man,
it is just the image cracking.
Let me be of one mind, a clean lens, for what is inside me,
and let that be You seen, not me.
I remember when I looked
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in the eyes
and told her it was the real me talking,
how my voice got hushed but firm,
how my eyes stared intensely.
Let's abandon the masquerade,
the god riddling my mind,
blocking who I am.
Fill me Lord, may Your light eviscerate the fog.
You're good enough to do it, You promise it, so do it. Do it!
I dare You.
I plead with You.
Every aspect of me, in its own way calls for you Lord.
So, I respectfully ask that You arrive.
Bring us all together in submission to You.
Lessen us that You may be truth.
Praise be the Lord of Lords,
the King of Kings,
the Alpha and the Omega,
the Beginning and the End,
Jesus Christ,
Son of God,
Perfect Lamb.
Amen.